MY FOREVER PERSON

Sometimes you always think of things as eternal as HIM.You live in forever because you will always be hopeful.Hopeful for a better life and never-ending happiness.I too tried to live like you,I prayed for no loss,I prayed for HIS will knowing very well that I couldn't handle it.Sometimes lessons come in the most hurtful,heartbreaking and bone crushing forms.You don't choose what you want to learn ,you just learn.At times  I wish there was a transitioning moment in life,like moving from grade 9 to 10 where one could be able to choose what they want to learn based on their abilities and strengths.Unfortunately,God doesn't follow our protocols and procedures.HIS law reigns supreme.He doesn't want you to think you are strong enough for something for him to exercise his will.He sees beyond what and who we think we are,so when we are down it is HIS way of picking us up.BUT I DIDN'T KNOW ALL OF THIS..

You know when you pray for someone to be in your life forever.When you trust and believe that God will keep that special person for you.I too wanted that.Have you ever looked at someone and just prayed in your heart that God keeps them for you?Have you ever felt the need to better yourself?Not even for yourself but for someone else.Have you ever felt yourself in someone else that even before you hate yourself for doing something,you are sadder for disappointing them?STORY OF MY LIFE 

Love is much more complicated than we think.You see the love in the most unfulfilling moments.You know when you failed a test ,but your dad doesn't shout at you.He sucks the disappointment and anger because he cares more about you than what you can't do?You know when you fall pregnant early,your mom is disappointed but lets you go to school and grooms the child for you?It is in those moments when you see the purity of someone's heart and wish for them to be your person forever.But sometimes love is perfect.You get everything you want,even without asking for it.Imagine having someone who cares so much about you that they would even lose themselves so you can have a better life.Sometimes you don't even pray because you know they are praying for you.You find a soulmate in someone and they accept you for who you are.They do not change you but help you better yourself for yourself even before you do it for them and everyone else.I experienced both kinds of love from the same person.SIGHS.

SO THIS IS MY LETTER....

TO MY FOREVER PERSON