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Maybe it gets better

Maybe it does get better. Sometimes I smile wider,genuinely, from the bottom of heart and other days I can't even bring myself to even move my mouth  I try so hard to be a better version of myself but how will I do it when the version I had invisioned is permanently erased Everything I had ever wanted is strapped off of me and now I have to create another life,another belonging,another home but where will I find warmth ,the love,the peace and everything that makes up a home Some days I find myself shopping for things I need to carry on, I find myself smiling because everything is falling into place  Then I find myself ,deep my thoughts, longing for what has passed  Because who am I without it, Where am I going if it's not the destination  Then again my world crushes right before my eyes, I don't even shed a tear because it's the new norm One day ,we up  The next day ,we fall But what if one day we gonna stay at the top Engulfed in every hope that was once crushed  Smili
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IF YOU'VE LOST

I hear a lot of people say "I don't know how I'm gonna live without my mother","I don't know what I'm gonna do without my dad" or "My grandmother is everything and I don't wanna lose her".I know we all mean it when we say we do not wanna lose our loved ones ,we think the world stops when that one person is nomore and yes it does stop but it doesn't stop for too long.It doesn't wait for you to figure it all out because at the end of the day this world doesn't belong to anyone.It belongs to God and his PERFECT will.The perfect will of God doesn't put a stop to suffering,it simply means that whatever is happening today ,good or bad ,God is working it out for your good! I don't understand when people say "I lost my mother but I gained a guardian angel" but what if what they are saying is "I lost my mother but I know God sees my broken heart and he will put back the broken pieces". So what if its not t
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MY FOREVER PERSON

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Sometimes you always think of things as eternal as HIM.You live in forever because you will always be hopeful.Hopeful for a better life and never-ending happiness.I too tried to live like you,I prayed for no loss,I prayed for HIS will knowing very well that I couldn't handle it.Sometimes lessons come in the most hurtful,heartbreaking and bone crushing forms.You don't choose what you want to learn ,you just learn.At times  I wish there was a transitioning moment in life,like moving from grade 9 to 10 where one could be able to choose what they want to learn based on their abilities and strengths.Unfortunately,God doesn't follow our protocols and procedures.HIS law reigns supreme.He doesn't want you to think you are strong enough for something for him to exercise his will.He sees beyond what and who we think we are,so when we are down it is HIS way of picking us up.BUT I DIDN'T KNOW ALL OF THIS.. You know when you pray for someone to be in your life foreve
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Remind me

Remind Me After a very long time of longing Depriving my soul of every fruit planted by the creator on this earth  I finally decided to undress myself  I wanted to strip off every cloth I had entangled myself with  I wanted to feel what my peers felt What my equals called life  I thought I was ready to fill the void in me  To walk miles with no food  To open my eyes with no shame  And to allow my hands touch what I had never touched  This time I was fully in  I wanted to be known  To be recognized  So I let myself walk around naked I allowed everyone see the most significant parts of me  I wanted them to be in charge of what I knew was mine  I swiftly handed over my being  With no hesitation and doubt  Hoping for approval and fixation From then I wasn't in control My soul was theirs to trample  They had every right to disturb the functionality of my inner being And everytime I screamed for help  A part of me got torn And everytime I reached out for a hand  Humiliation was born So n
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